I made it
If there was one important thing about life that this four daunting years in my university has taught me is...
it doesn't matter how you start, as long as you have that will, nothing is too late.
To my juniors and all those out there still struggling as an undergraduate, perhaps even on the verge of giving up yourself, please don't. I did poorly in my first year, but my results in my last year have proven that you definitely can turn the game around. It's no longer a question about can or cannot, but about whether you want it.
It was never my intention to have this blog serve a preaching role, cause I for one is not in the position to preach, but having lived 23 years, there are a lot of self-reflection that I hope to do. Now that I have officially put a fullstop on the 16 years of learning, I will be heading to a new phase in life, one that remains largely uncertain and equally perilous.
If I have to use just one word to describe my current emotion, INSECURE
One can ask how prepared I am for my new challenges, my answer would indefinitely be I'm not. I must admit I am in a phase of confusion and lost. Identity crisis? Scrambling to fix a new identity that thrives in a workplace environment, preferably one that puts charisma and capabilities in the foreground. As much as the latter, the former quality is especially essential in raising your likability, drawing colleagues to you like a social butterfly, which will come in handy in the inevitable office politics. Some may say never to partake in office politics, but it never was a choice. Many times, you get drawn in without even knowing you did. More often than not, everyone during their working life would in some way become the center of gossips and resentment.
That's all from me.
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because small things matter
Name: Xuan | 千羽 久美子 | 채미선
Residing in: Singapore (I'm 100% Singaporean!)
School: NUS, Communications and New Media
Birthday: 25/11
Status: Single (for now *-*)
It is a little late when I decide to start this blog, but it was also at this time when I believe that blogging will benefit me in the long run. There have been many instances where my tiny brain was so overwhelmed with thoughts and feelings that it was on the verge of explosion, regardless whether they are positively or negatively charged. Bottled feelings, as most said, aren't exactly healthy. Then I chanced upon several of my friends' (both real and virtual) blogs and realised that it could be a perfect avenue to unleash and reflect upon all these fragments of memory, emotions and thoughts.
My mystery: why do some people choose to display all their unhappiness, anger and frustration externally, and transfer them to the lovely people around. Many a times, a simple smile to the people you communicate with makes the cold world seemed much more live-able. In Singapore, it is difficult to see a smile on one's face, it is even more rare to have one to smile to you. This clearly reflects why she is ranked high in the unhappiness index. I wonder...is it really that demanding for one to give even the slightest smile or warmth to the people around. Perhaps, we are all just too obsessed with personal achievements and plagued by the underlying jealousy and competition in this 'dog-eat-dog' country.
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Flavours of Life will be where I document some of those human mysteries I observe in my surroundings which most choose to ignore. It can be extremely interesting to stop, observe and reflect on them because you may be surprised by the sort of enlightenment one can gather from them. It is also here where I seek mental relaxation as it provides me with an escapism from the harsh reality. I will also use this space to immerse in my obsession for entertainment (Well, I can't quite move away from this since it is one of my main source of virtual happiness)